Just a quick update on events of the evening. Had a lovely phone call with Ann Marie, filled with lots of sharing and insight and leaving me feeling quite good, hopeful and reassured. I think that no matter how I expand the scope of my life, we'll have a different experience of experiencing, but my tendency to withhold myself exaggerates that contrast to an artificial degree, which makes us feel divided. When I don't withhold myself, and open myself to the moment, the result is an experience that we each have in our own ways, but which complement one another in a pretty joyous and intriguing way. It's like the way two eyes make a stereo vision--two shared experiences create one with depth.
I started just before the call, and continued afterward, the process of writing a song for her. I've spent so long working on music in abstract--ideas, fragments, themes, mostly without words--that it feels odd and challenging to be in the process of something so cohesive as writing a song. As I told her, I have the annoying tendency to want to make each one everything--to have it live up to every standard I have, and it almost always sabotages the process, leaving more fragments. I came up with some ideas I quite liked tonight, but still have had second thoughts about them. My challenge now is to be at peace with those thoughts, and use them to shape it or change it, not desert it.
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